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| Tuesday, November 7th, 2006 | | 2:18 am |
I really am wishing my computer had some speakers right about now, no real reason. No real post. It's late. I'm going to watch Disney Channel until I fall asleep.. ...and btw I mourn for you lj. Few people use you anymore. Woe! | | Friday, November 3rd, 2006 | | 1:41 am |
He's got a way about Him
There is hope in heaven. That's all I could come up with the jumble of my thoughts. So so so so much on my plate. I really hate that saying. After Patmos I don't really know what there is. I don't even have a place to live much less money to move into a place. I hope I get married or something because I'll be living in a tent outside of Calvary Chapel. Married. I can't deal with that I'm such a loner. An inconsistant loner. I'll selfishly want people around me but then I really want them to leave, and I'd like to be alone. I'm alone right now. It's nice...but will I enjoy the company of my husband all the time? Will I get annoyed? I'm sure....but I don't want to be that way! More so showing me I'm not ready for marriage or submission...I mean I'd get myself a 60% on the submission thing, I think when it comes to hurting my feelings I get a little mad and stop being submissive...then I just start being angry. Lol. GOSH! Lol, I was a brain puppet today. Booyah! | | Thursday, September 7th, 2006 | | 3:42 pm |
Man! I'm SO aggervated with school! I just don't have time. Lord LORD is this in your will for me to do school? I feel hung by it, like when I come back from the Bahamas it's going to stop me from going onto the mission field and it will! It will do just that...or../sigh. Am I to teach on the field. Gosh I don't know, it's stressing me out. I feel like I've got too much on my hands...and my math teacher is so so rude. | | Wednesday, September 6th, 2006 | | 2:00 am |
| | Sunday, August 27th, 2006 | | 12:22 am |
Math at 12:22 am
..and I'm still not done. I've got three more tests/homework/whatever they are to go in this Algebra class. People, it's dumb math..it's like MAT0024 or something of the sort, I still have MAT0033 to even get to MATwhateveritis JUST to get college credit. I made a huge mistake in highschool, art school and love life certainly had a hold on my in 2003. Yet, this is really working out, and I even enjoy it. It's strange to think I have my own apartment, not like it hasn't been like this for a while it's just the fact I'm..well I was going to say independent but I'm not because mommy pays for school...and I SO SO SO SO SO appriciate it. She's also coming to church a lot, it's really so nice to see her at Dad's house :) Last Wednesday my phone wasn't working so she stood outside on the campus just praying I'd come by..literally..then I did. I love how God answered that prayer. It wasn't even in the grill it was just somewhere on the grounds. well it's 12:26 and I work at 8:30...so I think bed is wise at the point. I'll let Chuck Smith sing me to sleep with Genesis chapter 7 | | Thursday, August 24th, 2006 | | 12:41 am |
Overwhelming!
Man, school...I just haven't dealt with it in so long, I barely know how to handle college. I seriously seriously thought that taking online classes would be easier than real classes..but it's REALLY NOT. I feel like I have more to do than I can handle, luckily one class is just a dumb Math Lab so I really don't have to do anything with it. It's like I paid for a credit. Dumb. My schedule..well it's overdone. I really wanted so bad to get as much school as I can in, and really I don't think I have enough, yet if I had more I'd NEVER be able to do it...but it's like I want to speed up God's timetable for my life. He just won't have it... To be honest. I'm feeling rather mopey..been a bit of a crybaby last couple days. Come home and be like David...I'm crying out to God but I praise him through this storm..and I'm not gonna run away...I always want to run away. Home is going to get better, school is going to become easier, and someday he'll put me in the ministry he's preparing for me ahead of time. Butterflies take time to become strong...then they die like what two days later...that's funny lol. | | Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006 | | 11:00 pm |
and I have the internet again
What was that...like four months without the internet? It was great. I didn't have cable, I didn't have the internet...I attended to things that mattered...I love it. Loved. Love. :) Well, Kris surprized me with Seaworld, I hung out with a Baluga whale...seriously...Baluga. BA stinkin luga. It was amazing... I'm exhausted. My schedule is so fully, I'm kinda scared it may steal away my time with God....i'm at church all the time, but that's not time with God. It's so nice to talk to Dad. | | Tuesday, May 30th, 2006 | | 7:21 am |
I'm going to Disney World for three days whoopidi whoop whoop whoooop | | Saturday, April 22nd, 2006 | | 3:35 pm |
I feel like playing video games! | | Saturday, April 15th, 2006 | | 1:05 pm |
Eternal Perspective...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths... I love that I actually do this now, When things happen that I don't really want to happen I just assume that God has some sort of appointment set up for me where I am at that moment, my life is not my own. Even something as silly as not being able to go to this beach party today, I can't go no matter what I do, he must want me here for some reason...so Lord. What would you like ;)? | | Thursday, April 13th, 2006 | | 11:12 pm |
Dreaming all the time, it's not foolish.
Ah life ;) ...ah forget life. Christ, and I say Christ addressing him directly. You stun me ;) I had a lovely little day. Worked all day but all together it was lovely enough, I've got to get myself on the mission field though. Lord I know it's all in your perfect timing but...my heart desires every day to go and do and see. Witness. I always feel like I could write a million things but, I never really come up with anything lol, not to say there is absolutly nothing going on. There is plenty of things going on but..it's just I tend to stand in awe. Left with nothing more but a smile for my Jesus. I must sound absolutly insane by this point to some, I remember before I was a Christian this sort of talk was so amusing to me. Funny when you embrace real life you stop caring about the trivial things. So Easter is coming up. I wonder really how this is gonna be, I am the only one with a testimony for Christ in my family. The only one...but if I have a true heart for the lost I'm going to feel the same thing for my family. God give me that joy, give me that peace, make me naive please, just make me naive to their scoffing so I can continue that smile reguardless of the teasing, that I'll have your heart so I won't see the sin I'll see your sons and daughters. ...lol...WOW I'm kinda excited!! | | 12:44 am |
But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.This sounds like modern day. I......I am a missionary. Send me out Lord. | | Sunday, April 9th, 2006 | | 12:06 am |
Good day, a good day thanks to a GREAT God. | | Thursday, April 6th, 2006 | | 8:45 pm |
I was just looking at my photobucket laughing at these pictures because I want bangs. My mom came to my job a couple Sundays ago and did all me and Noelle's rollups (woo!) then she took pictures. I like her bangs so I was like heck no I want bangs too...  Noelle thinks she looks like a 're re' as she calls it. Lol. A rere. I better cut this cause I got a pretty valid post along with rediculous pictures. ( Cut a saoures rex ) | | Tuesday, April 4th, 2006 | | 11:24 pm |
but i can play the guitar. | | 11:23 pm |
LAME! Lame lame lame I'm feeling lame | | Sunday, April 2nd, 2006 | | 12:45 am |
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I had a really good day ;) I slept in, took over the bed cause Kris left early to go spend time with the Lowe's. At work it was steady but I was having fun! :) I seriously don't usually even care if I make money as long as I'm truly having fun, joy of the Lord. It's good stuff. Things are coming up. I choose to ponder them in my heart. A lot of people are going through a lot of things though...it's like everyone around me is confused. At this time in our life, things do seem confusing though. Oh man..I literally feel a pain in my heart for people. It's quite literal. Intercession soon. | | Saturday, April 1st, 2006 | | 12:24 am |
Peter sunk when he realized he was out on the ocean. He should have kept his eyes on Jesus. So should we. I see sinkage. | | Friday, March 24th, 2006 | | 1:31 am |
i can't wait to sleep in on Saturday | | Tuesday, March 21st, 2006 | | 10:33 pm |
Well la de dah
My mom has this picture of a block of cheese with inspiring things like "things happen, anticipate change, bla bla bla" I find it hilarious, I mean of course change happens and all but its a block of cheese. Good stuff. Besides, I don't need a block of cheese to tell me with Solomon told me a long time ago, and then people wrote songs about it, equally good stuff. I'm pretty sure she's still stealing the internet lol..i love it. So I never post in this thing, I don't seem to ever have the energy or enough emo in me to go on and on in it. Or on at all. If I do you'll get the usual "I never post in this" post. Much like this one. Change does happen though doesn't it. I guess it happens too fast for my liking, but like the bible says there's a season for everything. My sovreign God. What would I do without my trust in you. The last time I saw my dad was in freshman year. I graduated in 2003. That's like 5 years. That's rediculous. A couple of days ago I got a brief email from Sam. The whole Sam thing was over 2 years ago, that time went by fast...and the difference from me then and now is enormous. I'm embarresed of whom I was then. Of course I'm embarresed of whom I was a couple months ago, and maybe a couple months from now I'll feel that way about how I am at this moment right now. My language, my attitude my entire character it's completly different, I'd even say bareable...unless you hate Jesus then you think I'm scum cause he's all I talk about. ... but i'm going to heaven so. hah. He said that going to school to be a teacher is "not very me". That's so funny cause its very very me indeed. I LOVE kids. Wilson and I don't talk, I barely see Nikki, I don't have a car or live with my mom. I never see Bryan. It's so funny cause months ago this wasn't even close to the case, A season for things. They'll keep changing. I bet sooner than I expect the same thing may happen with Kristen and Steven. It's not that I'm upset or even will be upset ;) I'm totally okay because, like i said. My God is sovreign...and amazing...and the people I lose here on earth I'll...well for the most part...meet up in heaven. We'll have eternity there... I'm so in love you see. So in love with the Lord. This is more than I could have ever imagine, this is more than I'll ever need or have or want. Agape. So perfect. I guess unless you have it, you won't understand :) anyhow I'm rambling, gonna go spend some time with my mom |
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